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•Many greetings to those who have stumbled upon these words! My name is Luunaathh, and I am a draconic identifying, indigenous mesoamerican traditional dancer who has been dancing with my local indigenous community for a few years now. My heritage is indigenous Maya, though I participate in the Mexica culture, the culture of Tenochtitlan. Since I have started ceremonial dancing and connecting with my indigenous Maya heritage, I have discovered a connection that called to not only my blood, though to my soul. My connection with eagles has grown to be an incredibly important sacred connection in my life, a connection that means more to my being than any words can describe. In these writings, I will attempt to put into words some of what my connection with Eagle means to my being as a nonhuman identifying indigenous dancer.
•My nonhumanity is what I will describe in these writings first. My draconity is what I would call the 'core aspect' of my nonhumanity. My spirit is a small fragment of a divine celestial dragon who I call Luunaathh. Luunaathh is a non-perceivable, divine celestial draconian entity that peers through my human body to experience human life. She is also highly radioactive, her form is imbued with powerful radioactive elements that would kill any living thing even close to her in an instant. Luunaathh is an undying being that is eternal, she existed long before time and will continue to exist long after. I am not truly Luunaathh as I am now however, as it would be an incredibly disingenuous stretch to state that I, upon this earth, am in any way divine. What I am upon this earth, is the spirit of a lycodraconic werewolf named Naauurraauukk that was originally created by Luunaathh and has lived additional physical lives as a werewolf. Naauurraauukk is a draconic soul. Naauurraauukk was created as an extension of Luunaathh, an extension like a solar flare would be to the sun itself. One of the physical lives of Naauurraauukk was reincarnated into this human body. It is a bit hilarious to know that a divine celestial dragon wanted to experience what it was like to be dogbrained. Luunaathh (technically my being) peers through this human body and influences the human mind significantly to the point where it deeply affects my spirituality, worldview, beliefs, and actions. Upon this earth, Luunaathh's traits create the core parts of my personality and who I am, as Naauurraauukk I am still just the wolf that is merely an extension of her. When this human life finally ends, I am meant to become a bearded vulture that flies alongside eagle. This may all sound complex, and even insane to some, though these are my orgins, and I am not ashamed of them.
•To provide better context as to why Eagle is so sacred to my being as an indigenous, nonhuman identifying individual, I will describe some ways as to why Eagle is sacred to not only my heritage, though to other indigenous peoples. As mentioned before, eagle is a sacred animal to indigenous peoples all over the world. To us indigenous mesoamerican peoples, eagle is the animal that flies closest to the sun, a powerful animal who holds great wisdom. To the Mexica people, the sun is the undefeated warrior that all Mexicas strive to be like, the warrior who descends into Mictlan (the underworld) and always rises again in triumph. To us Maya people, the sun is a giver of life, a warrior that lights the world in his journey across the sky, a symbol that gives the people our sense of time. The sun is central in our beliefs and ceremony as Maya people, and eagle flying closest to the sun, one of our most sacred symbols, gives him great wisdom and power. In the creation of the five suns story, first told in Tenochtitlán, the golden eagle was originally a pure white eagle before he flew over the sacred fire that was used to sacrifice Nanahuatzin and Tecciztecatl, the ashes from the flame giving him his dark plumage, along with the jaguar who received his spots from the fire. Eagle witnessed this sacred event, giving him a connection to our sacred energies, to the wisdom that guides the Mexica people, to our ceremonies and identities as indigenous people. He is a witness to our history, our origins as indigenous peoples. Eagle is the one who told the Mexica people where to establish the great city of Tenochtitlan, he has been with us through all of our great historical events, and has always watched over us, through good times and bad times. Eagle is also a sacred figure of wisdom in indigenous north american culture, the one who flies closest to the creator, who carries the messages and prayers of the people to our sacred and venerated spirits, a figure who always speaks the truth and speaks wisdom to the people, though he means something different to every tribe and nation. Everything the eagle is and has always been is incredibly important to us indigenous peoples, he has always been a part of our beliefs and ceremonies, he has been with us since the beginning. His feathers are a sacred gift that guides us in both good times and bad, a gift that teaches us about ourselves and the human experience as we continue walking the red road, a gift that reminds us of who we are as indigenous peoples. When a feather falls to the earth, all of the bird's energy is carried with it, and this medicine guides us natives who hold eagle feathers.
•Eagle is significant to my being as well, not only as an indigenous Maya individual, though also as a nonhuman identifying individual. The eagle guides my being through his feathers, his medicine, and his presence, teaching my being to always walk in a good way upon this earth, to remember who I am as both a human and a nonhuman being, to feel confident when I engage with ceremony and ritual. The eagle feather I hold, in my eyes, represents my identity as an indigenous dancer who connects with the eagle, it is a symbol that teaches my being of my origins as a nonhuman being, as an indigenous person. It reminds my being to always hold positive traits, to feel confident as I walk the red road, to always be kind to others and remember the wisdom that my elders have passed down to my being. The eagle means so much to my being, more than I could ever describe with words. I did not always hold this sacred connection though, and I did not seek this connection out. It found my being when I first started dancing in ceremony. From the first ceremony I danced in, I always saw hawks and vultures flying over my being, and I was always the only one who noticed them. Many times I felt this unspeakable urge to look up at the sky as I danced, only to see a hawk, a vulture, and a rare eagle flying overhead. It was like they were calling my being to look upon them, to connect with them in the sacred ways that I connect with my indigenous heritage. From those moments of brief connection in sacred spaces formed a powerful connection with birds of prey, though eagles especially called out to my being for this unspeakable reason. The more I participated in ceremony, the stronger the calling to connect with eagles became. Eventually I sought this connection out, and found my way to the eagle feather that I hold today.
•I came to hold my eagle feather when I started a project to give wedge tailed eagle feathers to non-tribally enrolled elders and community leaders who needed them. Not all of our elders are tribally enrolled, and indigenous mesoamerican elders especially do not have this privilege. I felt called to share the medicine of the eagle with our community elders, giving them feathers that were legally obtained and supplied with permits. I was allowed to keep one to guide my being throughout my path on the red road. My feather is a wedge tailed eagle flight feather with a black tip, white base, and brown spots. Every part of the eagle feather represents something sacred, from each strand of the feather to the stem of the feather. The eagle feather I hold represents so much to my being not only as an indigenous maya dancer, though also as a nonhuman identifying individual. It connects my being to the great creator, to the animal I hold so dear to my heart, to my indigenous heritage, to my nonhumanity, and many other positive traits. This eagle feather, most importantly I believe, represents my relationship with the draconic creator divinity I worship, the one who I call creator, the almighty infinite one. The eagle is the messenger of creator, and his feathers are seen as gifts from the creator, so this importance is only natural. The one who I call the almighty infinite one is a black scaled void dragon who sparked all of creation into existence with the first sacred fire, sparked from his claws and maw. He created the unending multiverse where my true draconian self, Luunaathh, originates from. Though I do not claim that he created this world, I still honor him as the creator in this life, for I am a draconian being at heart. I honor my origins before this earthen life and recognize where I originated from. The eagle reminds my being to always hold my relationship to the great draconian creator close to my heart, to always honor him and remember every blessing he has bestowed upon my being. I smudge my eagle feather with copal, white sage, and cedar, medicines from the creator, asking the spirit and medicine of the eagle to carry my prayers to him in a good way. I see the black strands of the eagle feather as representative of the voidal black scales of the infinite one, a reminder of the great creator's strength and regality. The spots upon the eagle feather remind my being of the embers of sacred flame, the white strands of the light that the great creator sparked into existence. Even the eagle feather's very appearance reminds my being of the sacred aspects of the creator, in my eyes, its sacredness is seen not only in its energy, though the appearance of the feather itself.
•The eagle guides my being, not only in my daily life and draconian ritual, though also in indigenous ceremony as well. The eagle feather gives my being the confidence to connect with my nonhumanity in ceremony, to dance as my nonhuman self when everyone else around my being dances as a human. It reminds my being to let go of my human fears, my human limitations, and connect with the animal side of my being, to connect to my stronger side. When I embrace myself as the wolf and the vulture when I dance, I dance with greater vigor than I ever could as a human. When all my energy is exhausted and my human body feels like it's going to collapse, I can dance again with intense vigor when I remember that I am a wolf, that I am a vulture. I draw upon the energy of the nonhuman to dance once more when all my human energy seems spent. When I hold the eagle feather while dancing, I feel that sacred medicine that calls out to my being, I feel the presence of the eagle that is always pushing my being forward and reminding my being that this is the path I am meant to walk. I am watched over by Lord Tezcatlipoca, the lord of the smoking mirror and the lord of the north as well in these ceremonies, and the eagle even aids my being in connecting with this sacred figure. Just as my connection with Eagle, my connection with Lord Tezcatlipoca is not one that I sought out, rather it was a connection that found my being as I continued my journey dancing in ceremonial spaces. The eagle feather aids my being in connecting with Lord Tezcatlipoca as well, the feather is a sacred object that guides my being through many of my other sacred connections in my life, it's a medicine that aids my being in discovering who I am, where my connections lie, and how I continue walking the red road.
•In the beginning of my journey with ceremonial dancing, I was always nervous and self conscious, wondering if I would ever dance in a way that matched with my community leaders. Sometimes I questioned if I was worthy to walk this path, to engage with these practices that brought my people so much joy, and it held my being back for the longest time. Though the eagle, and my beloved draconian mate Auullthhuunnakk, taught my being confidence, they taught my being not to fear what those who judge feel about my being. They taught my being to dance with happiness, to dance with fulfillment and vigor. The eagle's presence is as positive as my own mate's presence. One presence guides my being from far beyond the veil, and the other is a guiding presence who exists upon this earth. Both connections are important to my being, though my connection with my mate remains the most important connection in my life, other than my connection with the almighty infinite draconian creator. Dancing is not the only aspect of indigenous Mesoamerican culture where I am guided by the beings close to my being. When I cleanse spaces with my popoxcomitl (sacred female lighter) during the opening and closing of ceremonies, I feel the presence of the eagle watching over my being, encouraging my being as I cleanse these spaces in a good way. Even as I light my popoxcomitl on my own, without the presence of my community, the eagle is always there for my being as the sacred smoke rises into the sky, watching as I once again connect to the Mayan blood in these human veins and keep these sacred practices alive. Through every aspect of walking the red road, my connection with eagle remains strong, and gives my being the courage and the pride to continue keeping my traditions alive.
•Through every step of this life, I am guided by the presence and the medicine of the eagle, and that means more to my being than I could ever speak in words. It's a sacred connection, a scared feeling, a sacred love that transcends language itself. During every ritual to connect with my nonhumanity, to connect with the draconic aspects of myself, the eagle is always there, passing on my intentions and my reverence to the creator, watching my being embrace my nonhuman origins. I feel my nonhumanity more than I ever did before, thanks to the patience and wisdom of my draconian mate Auullthhuunnakk, and the guidance of the sacred eagle. I can spread my spectral vulture wings with pride, knowing that the eagle is proud of my being, and is awaiting my being to soar alongside him in the next life.
•My nonhumanity is what I will describe in these writings first. My draconity is what I would call the 'core aspect' of my nonhumanity. My spirit is a small fragment of a divine celestial dragon who I call Luunaathh. Luunaathh is a non-perceivable, divine celestial draconian entity that peers through my human body to experience human life. She is also highly radioactive, her form is imbued with powerful radioactive elements that would kill any living thing even close to her in an instant. Luunaathh is an undying being that is eternal, she existed long before time and will continue to exist long after. I am not truly Luunaathh as I am now however, as it would be an incredibly disingenuous stretch to state that I, upon this earth, am in any way divine. What I am upon this earth, is the spirit of a lycodraconic werewolf named Naauurraauukk that was originally created by Luunaathh and has lived additional physical lives as a werewolf. Naauurraauukk is a draconic soul. Naauurraauukk was created as an extension of Luunaathh, an extension like a solar flare would be to the sun itself. One of the physical lives of Naauurraauukk was reincarnated into this human body. It is a bit hilarious to know that a divine celestial dragon wanted to experience what it was like to be dogbrained. Luunaathh (technically my being) peers through this human body and influences the human mind significantly to the point where it deeply affects my spirituality, worldview, beliefs, and actions. Upon this earth, Luunaathh's traits create the core parts of my personality and who I am, as Naauurraauukk I am still just the wolf that is merely an extension of her. When this human life finally ends, I am meant to become a bearded vulture that flies alongside eagle. This may all sound complex, and even insane to some, though these are my orgins, and I am not ashamed of them.
•To provide better context as to why Eagle is so sacred to my being as an indigenous, nonhuman identifying individual, I will describe some ways as to why Eagle is sacred to not only my heritage, though to other indigenous peoples. As mentioned before, eagle is a sacred animal to indigenous peoples all over the world. To us indigenous mesoamerican peoples, eagle is the animal that flies closest to the sun, a powerful animal who holds great wisdom. To the Mexica people, the sun is the undefeated warrior that all Mexicas strive to be like, the warrior who descends into Mictlan (the underworld) and always rises again in triumph. To us Maya people, the sun is a giver of life, a warrior that lights the world in his journey across the sky, a symbol that gives the people our sense of time. The sun is central in our beliefs and ceremony as Maya people, and eagle flying closest to the sun, one of our most sacred symbols, gives him great wisdom and power. In the creation of the five suns story, first told in Tenochtitlán, the golden eagle was originally a pure white eagle before he flew over the sacred fire that was used to sacrifice Nanahuatzin and Tecciztecatl, the ashes from the flame giving him his dark plumage, along with the jaguar who received his spots from the fire. Eagle witnessed this sacred event, giving him a connection to our sacred energies, to the wisdom that guides the Mexica people, to our ceremonies and identities as indigenous people. He is a witness to our history, our origins as indigenous peoples. Eagle is the one who told the Mexica people where to establish the great city of Tenochtitlan, he has been with us through all of our great historical events, and has always watched over us, through good times and bad times. Eagle is also a sacred figure of wisdom in indigenous north american culture, the one who flies closest to the creator, who carries the messages and prayers of the people to our sacred and venerated spirits, a figure who always speaks the truth and speaks wisdom to the people, though he means something different to every tribe and nation. Everything the eagle is and has always been is incredibly important to us indigenous peoples, he has always been a part of our beliefs and ceremonies, he has been with us since the beginning. His feathers are a sacred gift that guides us in both good times and bad, a gift that teaches us about ourselves and the human experience as we continue walking the red road, a gift that reminds us of who we are as indigenous peoples. When a feather falls to the earth, all of the bird's energy is carried with it, and this medicine guides us natives who hold eagle feathers.
•Eagle is significant to my being as well, not only as an indigenous Maya individual, though also as a nonhuman identifying individual. The eagle guides my being through his feathers, his medicine, and his presence, teaching my being to always walk in a good way upon this earth, to remember who I am as both a human and a nonhuman being, to feel confident when I engage with ceremony and ritual. The eagle feather I hold, in my eyes, represents my identity as an indigenous dancer who connects with the eagle, it is a symbol that teaches my being of my origins as a nonhuman being, as an indigenous person. It reminds my being to always hold positive traits, to feel confident as I walk the red road, to always be kind to others and remember the wisdom that my elders have passed down to my being. The eagle means so much to my being, more than I could ever describe with words. I did not always hold this sacred connection though, and I did not seek this connection out. It found my being when I first started dancing in ceremony. From the first ceremony I danced in, I always saw hawks and vultures flying over my being, and I was always the only one who noticed them. Many times I felt this unspeakable urge to look up at the sky as I danced, only to see a hawk, a vulture, and a rare eagle flying overhead. It was like they were calling my being to look upon them, to connect with them in the sacred ways that I connect with my indigenous heritage. From those moments of brief connection in sacred spaces formed a powerful connection with birds of prey, though eagles especially called out to my being for this unspeakable reason. The more I participated in ceremony, the stronger the calling to connect with eagles became. Eventually I sought this connection out, and found my way to the eagle feather that I hold today.
•I came to hold my eagle feather when I started a project to give wedge tailed eagle feathers to non-tribally enrolled elders and community leaders who needed them. Not all of our elders are tribally enrolled, and indigenous mesoamerican elders especially do not have this privilege. I felt called to share the medicine of the eagle with our community elders, giving them feathers that were legally obtained and supplied with permits. I was allowed to keep one to guide my being throughout my path on the red road. My feather is a wedge tailed eagle flight feather with a black tip, white base, and brown spots. Every part of the eagle feather represents something sacred, from each strand of the feather to the stem of the feather. The eagle feather I hold represents so much to my being not only as an indigenous maya dancer, though also as a nonhuman identifying individual. It connects my being to the great creator, to the animal I hold so dear to my heart, to my indigenous heritage, to my nonhumanity, and many other positive traits. This eagle feather, most importantly I believe, represents my relationship with the draconic creator divinity I worship, the one who I call creator, the almighty infinite one. The eagle is the messenger of creator, and his feathers are seen as gifts from the creator, so this importance is only natural. The one who I call the almighty infinite one is a black scaled void dragon who sparked all of creation into existence with the first sacred fire, sparked from his claws and maw. He created the unending multiverse where my true draconian self, Luunaathh, originates from. Though I do not claim that he created this world, I still honor him as the creator in this life, for I am a draconian being at heart. I honor my origins before this earthen life and recognize where I originated from. The eagle reminds my being to always hold my relationship to the great draconian creator close to my heart, to always honor him and remember every blessing he has bestowed upon my being. I smudge my eagle feather with copal, white sage, and cedar, medicines from the creator, asking the spirit and medicine of the eagle to carry my prayers to him in a good way. I see the black strands of the eagle feather as representative of the voidal black scales of the infinite one, a reminder of the great creator's strength and regality. The spots upon the eagle feather remind my being of the embers of sacred flame, the white strands of the light that the great creator sparked into existence. Even the eagle feather's very appearance reminds my being of the sacred aspects of the creator, in my eyes, its sacredness is seen not only in its energy, though the appearance of the feather itself.
•The eagle guides my being, not only in my daily life and draconian ritual, though also in indigenous ceremony as well. The eagle feather gives my being the confidence to connect with my nonhumanity in ceremony, to dance as my nonhuman self when everyone else around my being dances as a human. It reminds my being to let go of my human fears, my human limitations, and connect with the animal side of my being, to connect to my stronger side. When I embrace myself as the wolf and the vulture when I dance, I dance with greater vigor than I ever could as a human. When all my energy is exhausted and my human body feels like it's going to collapse, I can dance again with intense vigor when I remember that I am a wolf, that I am a vulture. I draw upon the energy of the nonhuman to dance once more when all my human energy seems spent. When I hold the eagle feather while dancing, I feel that sacred medicine that calls out to my being, I feel the presence of the eagle that is always pushing my being forward and reminding my being that this is the path I am meant to walk. I am watched over by Lord Tezcatlipoca, the lord of the smoking mirror and the lord of the north as well in these ceremonies, and the eagle even aids my being in connecting with this sacred figure. Just as my connection with Eagle, my connection with Lord Tezcatlipoca is not one that I sought out, rather it was a connection that found my being as I continued my journey dancing in ceremonial spaces. The eagle feather aids my being in connecting with Lord Tezcatlipoca as well, the feather is a sacred object that guides my being through many of my other sacred connections in my life, it's a medicine that aids my being in discovering who I am, where my connections lie, and how I continue walking the red road.
•In the beginning of my journey with ceremonial dancing, I was always nervous and self conscious, wondering if I would ever dance in a way that matched with my community leaders. Sometimes I questioned if I was worthy to walk this path, to engage with these practices that brought my people so much joy, and it held my being back for the longest time. Though the eagle, and my beloved draconian mate Auullthhuunnakk, taught my being confidence, they taught my being not to fear what those who judge feel about my being. They taught my being to dance with happiness, to dance with fulfillment and vigor. The eagle's presence is as positive as my own mate's presence. One presence guides my being from far beyond the veil, and the other is a guiding presence who exists upon this earth. Both connections are important to my being, though my connection with my mate remains the most important connection in my life, other than my connection with the almighty infinite draconian creator. Dancing is not the only aspect of indigenous Mesoamerican culture where I am guided by the beings close to my being. When I cleanse spaces with my popoxcomitl (sacred female lighter) during the opening and closing of ceremonies, I feel the presence of the eagle watching over my being, encouraging my being as I cleanse these spaces in a good way. Even as I light my popoxcomitl on my own, without the presence of my community, the eagle is always there for my being as the sacred smoke rises into the sky, watching as I once again connect to the Mayan blood in these human veins and keep these sacred practices alive. Through every aspect of walking the red road, my connection with eagle remains strong, and gives my being the courage and the pride to continue keeping my traditions alive.
•Through every step of this life, I am guided by the presence and the medicine of the eagle, and that means more to my being than I could ever speak in words. It's a sacred connection, a scared feeling, a sacred love that transcends language itself. During every ritual to connect with my nonhumanity, to connect with the draconic aspects of myself, the eagle is always there, passing on my intentions and my reverence to the creator, watching my being embrace my nonhuman origins. I feel my nonhumanity more than I ever did before, thanks to the patience and wisdom of my draconian mate Auullthhuunnakk, and the guidance of the sacred eagle. I can spread my spectral vulture wings with pride, knowing that the eagle is proud of my being, and is awaiting my being to soar alongside him in the next life.
